katieomgox

: katieomgox; March 29th, 18:31

: katieomgox; March 13th, 21:30

I AM -
[x] anorexic
[ ] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[ ] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[x] Under 100lbs
[x] starving yourself
[ ] participating in a fast

PEOPLE -
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] called me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] have said I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[ ] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic

I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[ ] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[x] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[X] seeing a difference when fasting
[x] shaking
[x] being weak
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[ ] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free oh and if it didnt hurt.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears. (i will soon)
[x] I have freckles. (only small ones)

FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house. (threated too)
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my trousers rip in public.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've been suspended from school.

BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying
[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[x] I'm at my thinnest
[ ] I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[x] I weigh myself daily - several times actually

[ ] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spit food out
[x] I've fasted
[ ] I've taken diet pills
[ ] I've used laxatives
[x] I've purged - many many times now adn i still am
[x] Bulimia
[x] Anorexia
[ ] Ednos
[ ] Orthorexia
[x] Over-exercising
[ ] Binge eating
[x] I exercise
[ ] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[ ] I've fainted from exhaustion

ive done:
[x] Weed (lots of times)
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[ ] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[ ] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[ ] Other

[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have a ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[x] I count calories
[x] I've had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[ ] I love food

[ ] I want to be this way
[x] I don't want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[ ] I don't want to get better
[x] I am in treatment

[x] I'm doing this for me
[x] I'm doing this for someone
[x] I'm doing this to prove myself

(no subject)

: katieomgox; March 9th, 21:24

yesterday(8th of march 2009) my mum and sister and brother found out about my ed and took me to the doctor today. i am going to try and get better

(no subject)

: katieomgox; March 9th, 20:31

I had a whole in my heart so I threw away my plate. Because nothing filled me up, no matter what I ate

(no subject)

: katieomgox; March 9th, 20:18

fighting for my biggest goal, to gain alittle self control.

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: katieomgox; February 26th, 21:22

you can never be too rich, or too thin</3

think better of yourself,
you're too good to put that in your body</3

so i guess you want to be fat forever, don't you?</3

craving is a feeling.
fuck feeling- i want to be pretty</3

my body- my rules</3

calories can't make you happy</3

the less i eat, the less i weigh</3

let no food toutch these lips</3

&& you're STILL not perfect.

it's good to be beautiful.
it's good to feel beautiful.
ana is my life. ana is my soul.
it is what i choose for me, not what i choose for you.
as i shed my shell and emerge from my cacoon, i do so
knowing who i am,
and what i do...</3

i don't care if it hurts,
i want to have control.
i want a perfect body,
i want a perfect soul.</3

scales never lie, love</3

if you eat, you will stay fat.
if you eat, no one will ever remember you as being that pretty thin girl.
if you eat, the string around your waist will get tighter.
if you eat, he'll never want you.
if you eat, no one will ever be amazed by how much weight you lost.
if you eat, all of your clothes will look horrible on you.
if you eat, you will always look like a fucking whale.
if you eat, you will be ugly forever</3

don't give up what you want most,
for want you want at the moment</3

i want to be the smallest i can be,
the day i see bone-
that's the day i'll finally be free</3

don't eat anything today
that you'll regret tomorrow</3

i'm a teenage drama queen-
i'll throw my guts up for self-esteem</3

an imperfect body reflects an imperfect person</3

an ordinary girl, an ordinary waist- but ordinarys just not good enough today</3

if you close your mouth to food, you can know a sweeter taste</3

i have a rule when i weigh myself. if i've gained then i starve the rest of the day.
but if ive lost then i starve too</3

bones define who we really are,
let them show</3

perfection is reached, not when there is no longer anything to add...but when there is no longer anything to take away</3

never too thin</3

because everyone thinks i can't do it</3

for perfection,
think thin</3

hunger is beautiful</3

i will be thin</3

you're lookin skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black, you're always goin to the bathroom always say you'll be right back</3

short matte black hair, big eyes the way they are in Japanese animation, skim milk thin, buttermilk sallow in her dress with a wallpaper pattern of dark roses... The part down the center of her hair is a crooked lightning bolt of white scalp</3

mind over matter,
and i won't get FATTER</3

look at yourself...
take a good look.
you have such a pretty face.
what a great personality you have-
imagine how much BETTER
you'd be
if you were THIN.
THINNER.
THINNEST</3

passion is knowing what you want
and never stopping until you get it</3

empty is pure</3

when will my REFLECTION
show who i really am
INSIDE</3

hunger is a feeling
thin is an art</3

stay strong
starve on</3

starving is control
control is tough
bones are beautiful
when thin isn't enough</3

i used to be
FAT
now im
PERFECT</3

hunger hurts,
but starving works</3

it's a
love/hate
relationship</3

i promise i will be
more
perfect</3

eating makes me sad</3

favorite drug

: katieomgox; January 13th, 18:00

what you get is what you see
it wont take much to get hooked on me
so shot me right into your skin
and i will be your ~~heroin~~
im your favorite drug
just one hit is never enough.

im dont think i am who you want me to be

: katieomgox; January 13th, 17:59

i ~~dont~~ think i am who you want me to be..
im sorry it took you this long to see,
im rolling aorund in my mindddd

your killing me

: katieomgox; January 13th, 17:57

~~look at my eyes~~, your killing me, killing me.

anorexic beauty

: katieomgox; January 9th, 19:58

anorexic ~~beauty~~. with toxic beauty.

im sorry

: katieomgox; December 9th, 2008

Current Mood:: depressed

im sorry im not smart
im sorry im not pretty
im sorry in not skinny
im sorry i wont ever be.

life is shit
</3

walk the plank

: katieomgox; November 17th, 2008

so i'll walk the plank
and jump with a smile
because if im going down
im going down in style.
<3

no one really knows

: katieomgox; November 17th, 2008

no one really knows what there looking for. this world is searching for so much ~~more~~.

beauty from pain

: katieomgox; November 15th, 2008

& all thats left is to accept that it over.
i try to keep warm but i just grow colder.
i feel like im slipping away.
after all this has passed i will still remane.
after i've ~~cried~~ my last.
there will be beauty from pain.

..thin feels

: katieomgox; October 9th, 2008

Current Mood:: blank

~~nothing~~ ~~tastes as good as thin feels~~<3

katieomgox

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